Not this German girl!

By Jill Krueger Wagner

I was married for four years when I became a committed Christian. When I told my husband I’d decided to dedicate my life to Jesus, he responded, “That’s not what I signed up for.” He resisted my faith & often made my life difficult. I’m a gung-ho sort of person & when I make a decision, I tend to go full force at whatever I’m doing. Ray objected strenuously to my devotion.

I really wanted to be a good Christian so I studied the Bible to discover how to please God. Then I came across Ephesians 5:22 & I said, “Not this German girl.” The thought of submitting to my husband (who at that time was making my life very difficult) rubbed me the wrong way. Every fiber of my being said, “no way!”

My minister counseled me to submit and do it sweetly, not angrily, but I was angry about it. No way was I going to be a doormat for Ray or anyone.

It didn’t take me long to learn that God doesn’t take rebellion lightly. Every time I was given the opportunity to submit, I refused. The Lord disciplined me each time. Gently at first but each time the consequences became more severe. The last time I ended up with a flat tire & I very clearly heard the Lord say, “Do you want to know what comes after a flat tire?” I didn’t.

There was a multi week class at church that I wanted to take. When I mentioned it to Ray his response was, “absolutely not.” I was furious. I railed at him, “Absolutely not? Who do you think you are – my father. I already have a father; I don’t need another one.” Then I heard that still quiet voice say, “Jill, you’ve submitted data, not submit.” This time, remembering the flat tire, I did.

The Lord took up my cause & for the first time in our marriage Ray reversed a decision. Ray was bullied by a man who towered over him. When he told me about what happened, I couldn't help but smirk. He asked me why & I said, "I know what it's like to be bullied - it's no fun." He responded "Is this because of those classes? Fine, go." I learned that doing things God’s way really does work. But then…

What was I to do when Ray forbade me to do something God asked me to do? God says, submit to your husband but he also says to tithe. When I started working, I immediately gave the first 10% of what I made to God. After a bit of time, Ray decided he didn’t like me doing that & he actually told me to stop. I was befuddled. But then I prayed. Jesus is the Mighty Counselor & what He counseled me to do was brilliant. My next paycheck I made out my tithe check but, as God directed, I made it out to Ray. I said something like, “Ray God tells me to tithe but He also says I’m to submit to you. This is the money I would give to God but I’ll give it to you instead. What you do with it is between you and God.” That left a serious impression on him.

It wasn't too much longer and Ray turned his life over to Jesus. I believe my submission was a factor.